Saturday, December 10, 2011

"...And be content with such things as ye have:..."

"...and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee." Hebrews 13:5

"What am I supposed to be doing today? Whats going on tomorrow? Whens my next appointment? What is that? When? Who? What?" Questions and thoughts can consume a persons mind sometimes. Oh I know for myself that once I have something on my mind, its hard for me to forget and to get it off. A prime example is this morning. I went to bed with a lot of things going on in my mind. I fell asleep thinking about it, and when I woke up, I was still thinking about everything that's going on around me, and in my life, and what I need to be doing, and whats going on in this persons life and how I wished I was already "moved on" in my life (married...found that special someone), and I just became overwhelmed and I sat there crying. I didn't know what to do, but to talk with the Lord. I told Him that I cant be waking up with thoughts and things of the future, and letting it overwhelm me. It's not necessary and its a waste of time. Why? Because God has me here right now, doing what He wants for me to be doing. I know I have said this in my last few blogs, but its so easy for me, for us, as humans to want what other people have. It is.

I want to move on with life and see what God has for me this coming year and so forth...BUT...I ask myself, "Why?" If God were to answer that prayer, I would miss on what God has for me now...today! As I sit here and type this, I am reminded that everyday is a new day, and how can God use me in this new day? I told God this morning as I sat there in bed looking out the window toward the sky, "Lord what would you have me do today?" I was listening to a song yesterday called "Grace", and the first part of the stanza says, "Lord, as I seek your guidance for today, I find my thoughts unyielding, confusion clouds my way, but then when I turn to you, the challenges you guide me through, Your promises are ever new, I give it all to you." Today is a new day like I said, and God must guide me through today, and I must let Him. How Lord can you use me today? Not tomorrow, not next week, but the day I am in today.

Philippians4:11 says, "Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content." That is a verse that I am still working on. Being content no matter what others may have, but being thankful for what the Lord has given me. Being thankful for what He is doing in my life. I don't know about you, but I want God to use me in anyway that He can. I want to always keep my focus on the  Lord. I am a child of God and still a work in progress. I want to grow so much closer in the Lord. I want to glorify and honor the Lord with all of my heart. Have I accomplished that? No. But Im learning. The Christian life as I see it and as I know, entails a lot of learning. But with learning, comes growing, and that is what I want to do. Lord, help me to be content no matter what state I am.

"...and be content with such things as ye have:..." Hebrews 13:5